A Love Curse

My blindness can see now
But my other senses have been silenced to numbness
With a hollow heart can I count my loss?

The venomous spears of the past
Have quickly multiplied
Piercing me to painful submission...
My new bed for the remains of my life
I twist and turn for a moment of ease
While you laugh aloud…
You laughter has a gluttony
Suddenly it has become so starkly visible 

Uncaring …you move on to your next prey

I want to collect...
A bundle of all those delicate moments
(preserved as the most beautiful,
that i had kept in sacred corners of my heart
and worshiped with utmost devotion)
Now, contaminated and stained 
They smell of my own drawn blood
Staring at me in their ugliness
They recount your true nature

Without a single tear... 
And in my sanest of mind...
I wish to offer them to the fires of hell
I will shriek but you will shriek too
And yours will be a hundred times louder
Now, that alone I wish to hear
Their sounds deafening me every time
For you deserve not to die but to burn & rot forever

Alive yet invisible

Here I start with addiction
The addiction I got towards people
Whom I think are close to me.
I be with them
I walk with them
I talk with them
I think about them every day and night
But its not the same with You
And Its clearly felt!
How could I be so invisible?

Where ever I go
Whom ever I talk to
How close I am with people
I am so unnoticed
Making people forget everything
Forgetting every special ocassion!
How Could everythin be so invisible?

No one to care about it
no one to think about it
Everyone like bumble bees
Buzzing away with their own commitments
Every where I go em still unnoticed
Every word I talk goes unnoticed
Every emotions expressed, yet unfelt
How could Everything about me goes unnoticed
Is it ignorance or being forgotten?
GOsh..Em I so invisible to everyone?

I've learnt
Expectations always ends in disappointment
The time I spend with them maybe little
But the care I show is like an endless journey!

Seasons may change,
but
reasons never!

Alive yet invisible to everyone!
Unfelt,Forgotten and unnoticed!

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Dont hurt me,am already dead!

Lonely and hurt,
Broken I remain
Residing in hell,
living in pain...

Masked by lies,
I slowly fade away...
The nightmare I live with,
each and every day

The meaning of it all,
to which my mind attends,
Has not one answer
that I fully comprehend...

The bottom of my mind
holds the answers which I call,
I keep reaching towards it
in this never-ending fall...

"Stay strong and keep going,
it's never too late"...
No one seems to realize
that it's not worth the wait

There's no such thing
as help outside of your mind,
It's you against yourself,
with your demons intertwined

It's a battle, hard fought,
but never to be won...
Either way you end up losing
when it's all said and done

"Too late" came and passed...
and, of me, nothing more
I wrote my own ending,
and I shut my own door...

"Live your life to its fullest"
that's what they all said,
But what's the point in trying
when you're already dead?

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I may not be there all along to share your way,
Time has wings and the flight of life may carry me away;
But memories of times we spent together-will forever stay.
No matter where i am or will be, but my heart will always pray-
that all happiness shines upon the path you take!


I may not have the words for everything that i've to say,
I may fail to let you know, yet never tell you-
What my eyes at times betray:
For when they speak, it's not sound but silence that reigns,
Silence: loud yet soft; turbulent yet calm!


I cannot explain what it is;
Nor seek you to understand.
I don't know why,
But still i wish somehow you could
Know the thoughts that pass my mind!
I cannot ask you to remember me;
Nor wish that you could forget.
But before i'm gone,
Before i wave the last good-bye,
Before all the unsaid words and
Unexpressed thoughts are returned to dust;
I wish i could say just one word:
'I'd love to die a thousand deaths-
for just one life with you!'

The Romantic fool

I was there, unseen unknown
Not that i regret anymore
Maybe i wasn't much -
of a sight to behold!

Now that you walk away
Without even an 'au -revoir'
Wish i could see just once more
Say just one last word ...

Was it love? I know not!
But yes, there was always
A secret joy, a quiet smile
That lit my face at your thought!

I said it perhaps a thousand times,
How i waited, how much i longed;
No, not through words-
But is it only sound that's heard?

Every time i looked into your eyes,
Couldn't you ever see what they said?
Every word of yours i listened,
Conveyed much more than what you meant!

Or so, i thought!
It was foolish, i admit
To hope, to wish for
And to wait...


I cannot ever ask you
Not to forget; or to remember
Me and my words. But you would
Always stay in my heart ...
Warm with the love, the blood
Warm with every breath i take...
I will forever remain...
This Romantic fool of yours!!!

I'm Thinking about you

I'm thinking about you, 
a little more each day. 
Holding on a little tighter, 
to all the words you say.. 

Every day I miss you, 
more than the day before. 
Our time together I love; 
and I'm wanting even more. 

I used to dream of you, 
as I lay in bed each night. 
Now you are my dreams, 
even through the daylight. 

I felt a flutter in my heart, 
whenever I saw you online. 

Today my heart is glowing; 
filled with a brilliant shine. 

I was shy to tell everything, 
which I was feeling inside. 
Now I feel so free to share, 
with nothing I want to hide. 

I thought you were special, 
from the moment we met. 
And each day a little further, 
into my heart you would get. 

I could always feel a bond, 
everytime our hearts shared. 
When our souls bonded also, 
I realized how much I cared. 

I find my heart needing yours; 
cherishing all that you do. 
Now, I'm not scared to admit, 
I am falling in love with you.

Some Relations Don’t have NAME

Does the fragrance of flower bear any name???

Our relation is like that fragrance…..
Our relation is like breeze, wind blowing out from the sea…..
Our relation is like the smell of the moist sand 
Which wraps the body & its smell fills into our mind….

If its just a feeling...
then why cannot we give any name to this Relationship, 
to this feeling ???

When I am sad then...
Why does your heart aches & cry …. ?
When I want to cry  then why do my tears, 
Come rolling down from your eyes….?

Why does my sadness, my fears, and my defeat touches your heart too???
Why does my respect, my insult, blows as storm into your mind of thoughts????

What is it that binds both our hearts together…?
What relation do we both share…?
Why do u mean so much to me & to my life ???


Can anyone give any NAME to this RELATION...???